Smelly Fish

My brother's family decided to sell everything they owned, buy an RV, and travel the US promoting the 17 year old daughter's talent. She sings Christian songs and is truly talented. My husband and I went over to their house to help clean up, clean out, and get ready for the big ole' "selling my life" yard sale. The rain poured down, things got wet, and we ended up with a sad, sad mess. I actually cried when I drove home. It is such an amazing thing to see all of one's life's posessions for sale!! I worried constantly about their welfare! How in the world could someone quit a $60K year job, sell everything, and hit the road? Well, their answer was, God. I also believe that God takes care of the believers, so I backed off of my depressed thoughts. They closed on their house on May23rd and ended up at my house the same day. Where else were they supposed to go? My brother, his wife, three girls and a big ole dog, came to my house wondering if they could stay. Mmmmm. My other brother had left his camping trailer at my house, so I told them they could stay in it, at least until they got their RV. They were fine with that idea and plugged in to our house. Tuesday-Friday, then they power started tripping, in the middle of the night, they come into the house to reset the power. From that point on, I started getting a little antsy, and pissed! I couldn't even dry my hair without the power tripping!!! My SIL got pissed and decided to spend the night in a hotel. Good for her, good for me.

Okay, fast forward Monday, May 29th. They buy and RV, or a tour bus! That is the biggest, baddest RV ever! They pulled up in the driveway, and I thought, yay! They are leaving and going far, far away. NO!!! They plugged into our house, attached the water hose and proceeded to live in my driveway. They had friends over, and all of their junk scattered in my yard. Boxes, crates and trash, everywhere! I live in a Subdivision, so you can imagine the site! Finally I called an RV park to get info. Well my brother's wife was having none of it. They went to another friend's house and plugged in for one more week, then on week at the lake. Man!

Death

In the past 10 days, three deaths have deeply affected me.
One, January 12th, a high school friend died. I don't live in my hometown, so I read about it a week late. Then, Friday January 13th a former student was killed in a car accident. He was a big troublemaker in 7th and 8th grade, and I had some ill feelings for him every once in a while, but now he was 28 and had turned into a very nice, productive adult. I saw him a year ago and he was so excited to introduce his wife and two children to me. He was so honored to tell me how well he was doing. I left that conversation feeling so good about him. Then reading his obit made me cry. He had another child on the way. Three days ago, January 20th, my neighbor and friend was killed in a 4 wheeler accident. It was his day off, one of a few. He worked so hard. He and his wife were separated. His son has been friends with my 16 year old daughter for years. I have been depressed all weekend. I have never really talked to his wife, she was very stand offish. So I went over to take food and felt very not wanted. I realize it was the grief. Gosh. Poor families.

OPB

I have been reading other people's blogs and it just amazes me how angry, deep, pissed off, all knowing, rude, some people can be. I know it is their own blog, but really. People read them. I think a lot of it is for attention. I think a lot of those writers are young and looking for something. I am so glad I wasn't an angry, twenty something year old that didn't believe in God. I have always believed in God, without question. I guess I shouldn't read someone else's thoughts, because I get upset sometimes. I know they are not talking to me, but some of things they deem acceptable to talk about, is really obnoxious.

I have one question: Why do twenty something year olds think they know everything?

The War At Home

I know this is really stupid, but I watched a show called, The War At Home Sunday night. I have never seen it, so I didn't know what it was about. I was extremely upset after watching it. It is a Sit Com, but was very inappropriate. The husband was having cybersex and thought it was okay, and bribed his youngest son not to tell the mom. When she hugged him he had a hardon from the cybersex and said to him, you must have been thinking about me, they went upstairs to have sex and she heard the IM sound. She saw it and got angry. but he acted like it was no big deal. Okay, then the teenaged daughter was upset that her boyfriend did not do anything for her on their one month anniversary. She gave him a blowjob and he didn't reciprocate. OMG!!!! What the heck? I cannot even imagine that show being on. I know other shows insinuate things, but this was blatant!!! I have been upset about it since then.

Balls

I hate when guys put their foot up on something and stand there talking. Everytime I see this I just think about their balls hanging in mid air. I know I shouldn't, but gosh. Why do they do this? I hardly ever, if ever, see a woman put her foot up on something and stand there talking. What is it? Do guys think they look cool? Do they actually think they are sexy like that? I

Sadness

I have really been having a hard time with all of the devastation of Hurricane Katrina. It has literally made me depressed. There is not much I can do, except send money, which I have. I try not to watch the coverage, but I can't help it. Those poor people. I know they are so disheartened. Who wouldn't be. Especially with the looting and shooting. What the heck? How can that even be going on? I wish that those people would get caught right away. I know that some people are afraid to leave their homes, because of looters. How tragic. Disaster brings out the best in some people and the worst in others. Lord help them all.

Time

I can't believe that it has been one month since I posted. I keep meaning to come here! I think of things to write about, then forget.

Right now I am worried about the stupid gas prices. What is wrong with me? There are thousands of people without everything because of the hurricane, and I am worried about gas. Our stations are shut down here, because they are out. We got to fill up, but I don't feel any better. I feel selfish. I don't live far from work, I could walk. BUT I am a lazy ass. I use the excuse that it is too hot. Shame on me. I told myself I would walk tomorrow, but I bet I don't!

The house is so messy and I feel like I am living in filth. I just can't seem to get it clean. I don't know what my problem is, but I need to get over it. People look to me for help and advice and I just can't give it to them anymore!